That last thing back there on April 3 was a false start it seems. I never really started tracking or anything. I don't quite know why, and it doesn't really matter. TODAY I did track my food. I messed up a little at dinner because I ate too much naan at the Indian restaurant, but all it did is dig a little into my weekly points budget, not a problem.
I've been using my activity trackers all along, but that's because it's easy. I haven't gone out of my way to work out since then except maybe twice. I have been being mindful about trying to seek out activities that involve a lot of walking around. I got 12 activity points the day I went to Maker Faire, and 10 the day I helped Sheldon with his photo safari class. I was limping back to the car the night of Maker Faire! One 90 degree day I went out and brushed horses with Evy, and I made myself sick within 20 minutes moving around in the sun. It's obvious I need to step it up or else I'll be miserable at Burning Man. I've gotten so out of shape again that this week my goal is nothing more than "do something that is "moving on purpose" every day. It doesn't matter what or how long because goals should be reasonably attainable and not suck! Today moving on purpose consisted of hula hooping as long as I could (maybe 3-5 minutes) three separate times.
Today I sat down for a couple hours and meal planned two weeks worth of dinners. Dinners are my downfall right now. I'm TIRED when I get home from work and anything sounds like a good excuse to grab take out or heat up a pizza rather than cook. Not having a required ingredient was a great excuse. Nothing that I could throw together in the house that was healthy sounded good either, as it would usually be something like a bit of baked chicken breast, white rice, and frozen vegetables. So I chose 10 dinners that were both healthy AND looked like something I'd actually enjoy eating and I went out and bought all the ingredients at once. So instead of something blah I'll be making things like tomato beef ragu with ricotta and mint, or soy and honey glazed tofu and vegetable skewers. I'm looking forward to cooking and eating it all up in the next couple weeks.
Ooh, also a friend of mine is helping me out, and we talked for an hour or more yesterday about goals and what they should be and HOW the heck to start going towards them instead of just floundering around. We also talked about headspace stuff like self worth and image and the like, all things I REALLY need to examine more. I got action items! I'm not ashamed to say blogging is one of them, as well as making the meal plan, tracking and moving. I think that as tending toward s on the D/s spectrum, I'm feeling a bit overly gleeful about having specific tasks to complete! I'm actually kind of torn between the hard way of thinking "This is something I'm doing for myself to reach my goals, and that pleases me." and the much easier (in my convoluted brain), "Ooh, I'm going to do these action items and I'm going to do them absolutely flawlessly, and everyone will see how perfectly I can do these tasks, and my friend will be SO pleased, and pleasing my friend makes me happy!"
How's that for a stream of consciousness blog entry? I'll talk about Burning Man stuff tomorrow maybe.
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